This is how I’m tryin’ to live these days: bein’ aware that some things and/or relationships weren’t (or aren’t) meant to be, no matter how badly I wanted them. I look back on the times where my heart wanted to go places that were forbidden to me but reality sets in (thankfully) to let me know that it can’t or won’t happen. As it turns out it was the best thing ’cause it was either something I really didn’t need in the first place or that person was better off with someone else. I didn’t look on this negatively (i.e., “I don’t think I’m worthy”), just realistically (priorities before pleasures, until I’m set to do it right). Didn’t feel all that great about it at the time, but compared to the alternative, it was better off that way. Bein’ older and wiser (and surroundin’ myself around smarties like yourself), I’ve avoided some serious embarrassin’ episodes. Yet again, I’m in your debt. Thanx again.

Achtung.